I've been thinking about starting this blog for a while, I just never had the perfect time to get it really started.
Now I have. I'd like to write mainly about today's social problems, self-awareness, self-confidence, friendships, relationships and all kind of topics.
So, I'm a 25-year-old single girl living in Budapest, Hungary. Trying to fit in this whole adult life-thing, and to perform both at university and work and at home as well. I'm standing on my own feet and it is kinda hard most of the time. But most of the time I enjoy it.
When I was young (I mean little), I've always considered people above age 20 like really responsible, independent and strong human beings but clearly I was so wrong.
Not to mention that adulthood sucks a lot, being even above age 25 we are so not responsible, strong or independent. Well I'm sure there are exceptions, but the most of us are just trying to meet the expectations of the real adults and trying to win everyday's competitions at school, at work and at home. Or even on public transport, like who's gonna get the seat on the bus?
Who is going to be the best for the job? Obviously the one, who can take the world's all stress on a daily basis and who is proactive, flexible and can take overtime but still is enthusiastic for the job and has a smile on his face while working.
My biggest problem is my neverending honesty. I just can't lie. I have this kind of urge that I have to tell the truth and in a very detailed way. This virtue of mine causes me a lot of trouble, because for e.g. interviewer don't want to hear the truth about you, they want to hear that you can take stress easily, you're proactive, flexible, able to take overtime enthusiastically with a smile on your face.
Honesty used to had a value, and nowadays it just makes you look vulnerable and weak contrary to other people who might lie, or simply just don't want to share much personal informations about them. Would it be today's standard?
So one of my lessons for this year is to learn how to shut up and how to filter only the most important stuff while talking about me.
By now I've reached that point where I'm getting a little more confident and stopped doubting myself all the time. The sad thing is that a bunch of bad things had to happen which led me to this attitude. Now I am kinda thankful, it wasn't always like this. But it's another story, I have so much left to write about.:)
